What you’re about to read is raw. It came through in a moment when I witnessed something deeply disturbing—something that stirred up fear, anger, grief, and a deeper truth. I didn’t plan to share it. I wrote it to regulate my nervous system and understand what Spirit was showing me. But as I sat with it, I realized: not sharing it would mean staying small and complacent. It would mean continuing to shrink and withhold what I see and know.
This is not a hot take. Nor is it a political statement or rant. It’s a sacred conversation with Spirit about how we hold complexity and shadow without collapsing into fear or rage—and how we rise with clarity, sovereignty, and deep inner truth.
There are times in our lives when we don’t yet have the words to describe how we feel. As I look at the world stage—especially at what is happening in the U.S.—I notice my body respond immediately. My chest and stomach contract. My jaw clenches. I brace in fear, and I feel red-hot anger and deep sadness moving through my veins.
As I stay with my emotions and begin to articulate my thoughts, I realize that I am grieving whatever I once believed my country was. I am seeing that our country is sick. All of this—the racism, misogyny, xenophobia, fear of change, and resistance to progress—is surfacing dramatically to show us what has always been there.
The superficiality and the mask this country has worn—and that traditional leadership has worn—are slipping. What was hidden is now visible.
At the same time, we are collectively confronting our complacency around having what I experience as a terrorist organization—ICE—walking our streets. In my body and nervous system, these agents register as men carrying unprocessed rage, emotional fragmentation, and a deep lack of accountability.
A part of me feels so angry that I have to tolerate and contend with this. I feel furious and helpless, unsure what to do. I am exhausted by people who make excuses for them. Regardless of political affiliation or how neutral or well-intentioned someone believes they are, you do not owe emotional labor to violent systems or the people enforcing them.
As I sit with these thoughts, I ask Spirit to show me how I can best be of use. The answer I receive is not about protesting in the traditional sense per se, or even posting, but about sovereignty—and supporting others in their agency.
Viktor Frankl, a Holocaust survivor who endured Auschwitz, wrote that no one can take away your right to choose how you emotionally respond to a situation, or how you interpret it.
I do not want my anger to become engulfed by collective rage—the fear, the frustration, the “us vs. them.” I do not want to justify violence in any form. And I also refuse passivity disguised as love, which is often just denial of truth.
There has been war and conflict since the beginning of time. Right now, we are dealing with deeply destructive people and policies.
So what is the best way forward?
I tune in and begin to channel.
Spirit:
Accept your humanity. All of the emotions surrounding this are real. They existed before these perpetrators. Humans enter this world wired to survive. Many people do not know how to work with their emotions—they cannot separate their soul from what they feel or believe. According to universal law, you become what you hate, and what you believe is true will continue to be proven true.
There is ample evidence of the sickness you are witnessing. You are not wrong to see it. But a greater truth is available now—one that extends beyond politics and binary notions of good and bad. What if these agents are externalizations of the abandoned parts of humanity? The parts that harm, dominate, or punish themselves for being different? What if they represent the emotional violence and unresolved trauma humans carry?
Many people are afraid of healing and facing their shadow. They lack the strength to do so, and instead perform strength by forcing their will onto others and creating enemies. This is rooted in victim mentality. To dismantle it, each person must examine where they blame others and where they avoid accountability.
There are areas of your own life that require your precious attention. Tending to these does not pull you away from the problem—it creates a viable solution that shifts collective consciousness.
Me:
But what about the people who will not do their work and who continue to harm others?
Spirit:
You are focusing too much on them and not enough on yourself. Surely there are areas of your life that are asking for action—places where avoidance or distraction is delaying joy, clarity, or integrity. Can you see how policing others may be keeping you from tending to what is yours to tend?
Me:
So I see that I will not receive a satisfying answer—because the work is to focus on what I can control and how I respond, rather than what I cannot.
Spirit:
That’s right. This is the next step.
I share this not to incite but to illuminate. If it resonates, take what serves you. If it doesn’t, bless it and let it pass. My truth doesn’t need to be yours. But I hope it gives you permission to sit with your own.