A Big Presence in a Tiny Body

A couple of months ago, I sat down with Allison Adams for her podcast, Art & Alchemy Lab. We talked about a lot of things — alchemy, illusion, discernment, grief — but the moment that stayed with me afterward wasn’t one of mine.

Allison told me about her daughter’s hamster, Benson. He slept with her every night. He had this unusually big, patient presence for such a small creature — more like an old soul than a pet. When he died, very young, he waited for her daughter to come home before he let go.

I remember saying, without really planning to: how amazing that this big presence was in this tiny body.

I keep thinking about that line.

Over the years, I’ve come to see that most of us are conditioned to look for Spirit in the spectacular. The wolf. The eagle. The unmistakable sign. The big dramatic vision that leaves no room for doubt.

But sometimes it’s a hamster.

Other times it’s a pigeon showing up so often you stop noticing it.

And, sometimes it’s a dog who jumps into your husband’s car during a storm on the side of the highway — and when you put your hand on his forehead, you hear, clear as anything, my name is Sky.

I’ve told Sky’s story before. He came to us in 2017, a lost white husky who looked more like a wolf than a dog. He stayed nine years. He died fast, not long after we came home from the Amazon, and I still feel him in this house.

Maybe that’s why I haven’t stopped thinking about Benson.

A white husky who looked like a wolf. A tiny hamster who slept beside a little girl.

Different bodies. Different stories. And both reminders that the size, species, or shape of a being tells us very little about the size of their presence.

Spirit wants to connect with us always. It isn’t hiding. I think we’re just not always looking in the shape it’s arriving in.

What has been trying to reach you in a shape you almost overlooked?

This letter came out of a real conversation — animals, grief, illusion, Sky, Benson, and a lot more we didn’t plan on saying out loud. If you want to sit inside the whole thing, it’s linked below.

Watch the full conversation on Art & Alchemy Lab: https://youtu.be/6emVrRAzkyY?si=51qjGMZltQaK0vfd

With Love and Wisdom,

Lauren

And either way, Time did not care.

Dear ones,

During this Temple Steps, I was guided to do another energy field healing for our group. This includes the people who were there live, as well as those who will watch at a later time. When I do this, Spirit will often show me images to pay attention to and share, along with messages that come in.

Immediately when I closed my eyes, I saw a huge hourglass. At times, the sand was pouring through fiercely and quickly. At others, barely a grain seemed to move. All of us have to deal with time, and all of us will have different experiences with it. There was a message about Time—who, by the way, I may refer to with a capital T when I see fit. 😂

There may be times when you perceive that things are happening very quickly in your life. Other times, not quickly enough. Whenever we have a judgment about Time, that can be our cue that Junior—the word I use for the ego—has entered the chat and taken on a middle-management position.

Things are going to move at the pace they move, and sometimes that feels really uncomfortable. With this Pisces eclipse, so many of us are in the process of letting go while also receiving our next steps. It can feel really uncomfortable to live in that space. But what happens when we trust Divine Timing?

Funny side story. A year ago, I accidentally went viral. It wasn’t millions of views, but a reel I shared ended up with close to 200K views—and it was not a pleasant experience. I had shared a video celebrating the accomplishment of receiving my first-degree black belt in Kung Fu. Somehow, it found its way to an angry mob of strangers who were very happy to troll, ridicule, and attack me. It was surreal.

And then, almost exactly a year later, I went viral again. Right around the time we were gathering on the Temple Steps, a reel I’d posted about the eclipse—with short horoscopes for all the signs—really started taking off. This time, people weren’t passing it around because they wanted to ridicule me. They were sharing it because something I said resonated with them. That was surreal, too. But my relationship with the experience feels much more neutral.

These two episodes of virality happened within about a year of each other, and I keep thinking about that hourglass. Why, out of everything I have shared and posted, did these particular things catch fire? Why then? Why now?

And that’s when I remember the Illusion of Control—one of the teachings that made its way through this Temple Steps gathering. No matter what we do, we cannot micromanage the experience the Divine has in store for us.

I am a fan of destiny. Not in the sense that Fate is controlling our every move, but in recognizing that there are moments in our lives—pleasant and unpleasant—when Time seems to stop and say:

Hey. Pay attention.

Maybe Divine Timing is at work here. This thing you’re judging as good or bad, right or wrong, wanted or unwanted? This, too, is part of your path.

I’m not saying that becoming an influencer is part of my destiny. 😂 And I’m definitely not saying I’m only going to share astrology content from now on. That’s not the point. What I am noticing is that the first time I went viral, I may have been much more attached to what the thing I shared meant about me. I had accomplished something important to me. I was proud of it. And when strangers took that thing and reflected something ugly back at me, it hurt.

This time? I really didn’t care. I shared something because I felt like sharing it. I offered what I saw. I put it out there and went on with my day. And it moved.

And either way, Time did not care.

Time didn’t speed up because I wanted something. It didn’t slow down because I was afraid. And it didn’t ask me whether I approved of what was happening before moving me through it.

Maybe that’s part of what the hourglass was showing us. There are times to move. There are times to wait. There are things we will understand while they’re happening, and things whose meaning won’t become clear until much later. We don’t have to micromanage all of it.

If you’d like to experience the full Temple Steps gathering, the replay is now available. There are healing activations, intuitive guidance, messages from the Animal Kingdom, the Illusions of Relationship™, and so much more that came through. Even if you weren’t there live, I trust that if you’re drawn to watch it, there may be something waiting there for you to hear. Divine Timing is funny that way. We hear and receive things when we’re ready.

Watch the Temple Steps replay here: https://www.youtube.com/live/FiN1mK1001Y?si=EbKR6b8aRpqJp4kL

Thanks for taking this little tour of my mind.

With Love and Wisdom,
Lauren — Black Belt Mystic, Psychic Healer for Humans + Animals

What is underneath the stress?

I sat down today and recorded a message about something I keep hearing, over and over: rest.

Not rest so we can be more productive. Not rest because we’ve finally earned it. The kind of rest that creates enough stillness to notice what’s actually underneath our stress.

Because sometimes the stress is real — the fears are real, the responsibilities are real. We’re not denying that. But underneath it, there’s often something else. Are you in service to your health, to your vitality, to your soul’s path? Or are you bringing someone else’s agenda into everything you do?

🎧 Listen here.

As you listen, you might sit with this: What am I carrying that isn’t actually mine to carry? And what might become available if I put it down — even for a moment?

Meet me on the Temple Steps 🌙

Come as you are. Bring your questions, your energy, whatever this eclipse season has stirred up in you. We’ll move through an Illusion of Relationship™, the current energetic climate, a collective reading, messages from the Animal Kingdom, and live card pulls for a few of you.

What if pushback doesn’t mean you’re wrong?

Something I’ve been noticing this eclipse season is what happens after we make a new choice — especially when that choice involves a boundary.

People get used to us being a certain way. Our families, our friendships, our work relationships — they all develop a rhythm around who we’ve been and the roles we’ve played. So what happens when we change?

Maybe there’s a dynamic you’ve been tolerating that once felt fine but no longer does. Maybe you’ve spent years being the “cool girl” — unbothered on the surface, quietly uncomfortable underneath. Maybe you’ve been the peacekeeper in your family, and you’re no longer willing to keep the peace at your own expense. Maybe a big life change has simply asked you to relate to people differently than you used to.

You set the boundary. You trust yourself. And then — someone has a reaction. Sometimes a big one.

This is one manifestation of the Illusion of Drama: when we take an aligned step and the response feels like real opposition, we start to interpret the disruption as evidence. Maybe I shouldn’t have said anything. Maybe this is the wrong path.

But another person’s reaction doesn’t tell us whether our choice was aligned. Sometimes it just tells us that something has changed — that a relationship organized around your accommodation has to reorganize now that you’ve stopped accommodating.

Our work is to stand by our principles and hold space for things to be messy, without needing them to go according to plan. To let someone else have their response without making it our job to manage it. Because the moment we start needing everyone to react a certain way — that’s a whole other territory. The Illusion of Control. We’ll go much deeper into that one another time. 😉

For now, I’m curious — where are you being asked to trust a new choice, even when the response around you doesn’t look the way you hoped?

Meet me on the Temple Steps 🌙
Thursday, August 27th at 6 PM CST / 4 PM PST / 7 PM ET — on your favorite social platform: Facebook, YouTube, or Instagram.

The Temple Steps is a free public virtual gathering, and this one falls on the day of the Pisces Lunar Eclipse — a potent one for us to go deeper into these themes together with a collective reading, healing, and card pulls. I’ll send links closer to the day.

Thank you, and please take good care of yourself this eclipse season.

With Love and Wisdom,
Lauren — Founder of Love Renegades, Black Belt Mystic, Psychic Healer for Humans + Animals

Real Message About Stability

Yesterday, we gathered on the Temple Steps. Our time together appeared to be centered on the Solar Eclipse, but it was went deeper than that.

Instead of only connecting about the usual themes of eclipse season [which, in case you’re wondering what those are, often range from how we dance with emotional volatility and react to intense change —present or impending], other surprising possibilities brought themselves into focus through an undercurrent of something I wasn’t expecting.

Near the end of the call, a card I don’t even remember drawing presented itself to me. Even though the call was ending, this card really wanted to be a part of our gathering. 

Its message?

Joy and Stability.

As I reflect on this, I think of the law of polarity, a universal law that upholds that everything has an opposite. If we look at the card’s message of joy and stability, we acknowledge the opposite as despair and instability.

And it makes sense that we would. There are times when I find the world deeply unsettling—which brings me to notice that this message came through not to ask us to ignore our perceptions, but instead to remind us of our power.

Yes, things are changing, but so are you.

Change is transformation, and transformation can be uncomfortable as hell.

There’s a Divine Mess that comes with this transformation—and that’s what I find exhilarating (dare I say joyful) about these personal and collective changes.

It is a joy to liberate ourselves from what we cannot control and to find stability in what we can.

We can do our inner work, continue on our path of growth, and challenge ourselves to make the changes that would serve us the most—trusting that these choices uplift the collective and move us toward raising consciousness.

What just came through for you is my personal philosophy. It may not be unique, but it’s how I choose to move through this ever-changing, chaotic world.

What about you, love? How do you move through change and the Divine Mess? Let me know!

Oh, and you can watch the replay here:

https://www.youtube.com/live/LEPyYmVL16Y?si=94YdJM-U8wLYWIc3

Thanks for reading one of my Lauren’s Letters.

With Love and Wisdom,

Lauren

What Your Dogs and Cats Want You to Know

As we’ve been moving closer to eclipse season, I felt guided to tune in — not just to the collective, but specifically to our dogs and our cats. I wanted to know what wisdom they had for us right now. What came through from both was clear: there’s a sense of balance so many of us are being asked to find.

The dogs are speaking to contraction. They’re seeing where you’ve tightened — where anger and frustration have crept in, where you’ve forgotten to play, forgotten to love yourself in the middle of it all. They want you to notice it, gently, and soften back open.

The cats are coming from the other side. They’re asking: what would it feel like to live on your own terms? To stop people-pleasing, stop trying to force something into being, and instead follow what’s actually true for you? They’re inviting you into expansion — into your own freedom.

Held together, it’s the whole picture: release what’s contracted, expand into what’s true. That balance is exactly the energy we’ll be stepping into this Wednesday at Temple Steps.

We’ll explore an Illusion of Relationship™ asking to be seen, the current energetic climate, a collective intuitive reading, more from the Animal Kingdom, and live card pulls for a few of you on the call — tuning in not just to the collective, but to the combined energy of everyone gathered.